♫ ♪ it'll all get better in time... ♪ ♫

i must admit...


i suddenly lost my reasons to fix things in my life... this week had been blurry to me... i didn't do anything 'good' for myself... it was like i'm in this deep hole and i've been holding on to someone else's hand but i lost my grip and fell down again... i tried climbing by myself but those rocks hurt like hell so i gave up and just stare from down... it was too high that i couldn't even see the light waiting for me on top...


it's raining again...


i just need to see a sliver of light... so i could force myself to leave this shit once more...


anyone??? feel free to jump and join me... i might need a push...






*** http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QpSedOGefZU ***

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

losing my resolve...

GAWD!!!


i don't know what i should do anymore. days ago, i decided something... i don't know if it was what i really wanted or needed but last night, i had a change of mind again. why??? because i felt so alone and lonely. i felt the pain burst out again... that much pain that i've been trying so hard to suppress for almost 3 months now and i felt so hopeless. there was no one to talk to... no one to make me laugh or take my mind off these things... it was just me & my 'comfort drink'. talk about being 'alcoholic' again.


SIGH...


i'm getting so damn tired of this heart... of this mind... i just want to be numb... i don't want to eat nor drink all day and night and sulk here in my room again... i was so lazy to even move or do something... i was just here, lying and staring at my ceiling... wishing for a miracle... that i may forget everything and be myself... be happy again...


ANOTHER LOUD SIGH...


i remembered my best friend's message and decided to make that my 'resolve...' it was so easy to say but as the night passes by, i find 'it' slowly crumbling apart... it's not easy... there's just no easy way, right?! damn! i can't drink myself to sleep again and again every night (or morning should i say) just to fall asleep for 4-5hrs a day... i see myself drowning deeper and deeper and i couldn't breath anymore...


i can't lose this one again... i need... i need... i need... myself back!!!

my resolve

‎"there comes a point in your life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama & the people who create it & surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad & focus solely on the good. after all, life is too short to be anything but happy."

mule night :|

yan lang ang itatype mo hindi mo pa magawa?!

emo lang...

oa na ba?

damsel in distress

i miss him.


i asked for this, right? i said this is what i need.


so, do i have the right to even miss him?


get a hold of yourself. :|

bleach!!!

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?


*** will try to think of ichigo for the meantime... :|

nakapulot na naman...

REST IN PIECES by SALIVA


Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
You look so beautiful tonight
Remind me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart?
To make it go away
And let me rest in pieces
Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hands
But could you find it in your heart?
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces

"Would you find it in your heart? To make it go away. And let me rest in pieces..."

*** so i can start picking up the pieces and make myself whole again...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RdmMoW2Gpgc

is it all i really wanted?

is it too much to ask?
or is it too much to ask the opposite?